Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Fear is a Hinderance

As 1999 turned into 2000 I started keeping a daily journal.  For years afterwards I wrote day after day about my day, about my dreams, about my horrors.  I would glue in horroscopes and pretty magazine pictures, movie ticket stubs and receipts.

Journaling was such a very huge part of my life.

And then I stopped.

My husband read some of my journals and got pissed off about what was in them and for a long time I was afraid to bear my emotions.

My marrige has moved on now so that I'm sure he doesn't care about what goes in my silly little books anymore, but...I stopped journaling for so long that I just can't get back INTO it.

I start thinking, "I never DO anything to write about." and I think, "I'm not GOOD enough to make a pretty art journal."

Right now I have my "Gypsy Soul" TN in front of me, loaded with 1 gluebook, 1 calander and....one completely blank book that is supposed to be my "Volume 1" journal to get me writing again

And I just can't make myself touch it.

I'm afraid.  I'm afraid I'll "ruin" it.

How can I RUIN something that is mine and mine alone?  How can I RUIN something that is a collection of my most inner-most thought and/or just a "Here's the boring shit I did today."?

I don't know, but that is what is stopping me.  I'm going to "ruin" it because I'm "not good enough."

Go figure.

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

Care for a Bite? - Wordless Wednesday


Halloween is in the stores, and its a spooky festive time of the year for horror lovers like myself.
This large skeletal fellow seems to know I'm on a diet.  He's teasing me with forbidden foods!


Monday, September 4, 2017

Weigh In Week 5

Okay, I had a good week!

So I've combatted my disgust of all things healthy by going on a majorly restricted calorie diet.  I'm eating a lot of fluid things.  Soups.  Jello.  Yogurt.  I'm not exactly on a fluid diet, I am eating SMALL solid meals, usually breakfast or lunch so I have time to work it off during the day.

I've been walking 1 to 3 miles a day depending on the day.  On days I close at work I've not been exercising.  I can't seem to make myself get out of bed early to workout before work.  Possibly because I have insomnia and spend more time awake than asleep at night.

I've switched almost entirely to diet sodas when I drink soda at work (the water at work tastes like rat pee).

And this week I LOST 4 POUNDS brining my current weight to 220!

Starting Weight: 230
End Week 1: 226
End Week 2: 229
End Week 3: 226
End Week 4: 224
End Week 5: 220

Thursday, August 31, 2017

Furry Vanilla Bean!



Remember Oscar, the Bearded Wonder?  I introduced you to him a little while back.

Well, when be brought him home from the Humane Society, he brought the itchys along with him.

He didn't have fleas, so all I can figure is that it was the shampoo we have been using.  The shampoo worked fine for our previous two pooches (rest easy over the rainbow bridge boys) but not long after his first bath his started scratching.

The scratching got worse after his second bath.

Now he's an indoor dog who gets plenty of outdoor play.  He gets down and dirty when he plays fetch, sending soil spraying in every conceivable direction and bringing mud and dirt inside with him.  I try not to bathe him TOO often, but he's got to be kept clean.

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So, when I get a chance to try Zesty Paws Oatmeal Anti-itch shampoo (https://zestypaws.com/collections/our-collection/products/pet-shampoo)I went for it!  I use oatmeal soap myself so I know that it has to work for my pooch too!

First up, the smell that came out of this bottle when I opened it was A-MAZE-ING!  Seriously!  It is made with things like Aloe Vera, oatmeal, and Sweet Almond Extract among other things, but this Oatmeal Shampoo smells like VANILLA!

It smells so good that Oscar kept trying to lick it off of my hands!  Silly dog, this is for bathing, not for eating!  Of course if its smells good enough to fool a dog, it MUST smell good.

A great change from the previous shampoo that smells more like chemicle than anything else.  That shampoo is also a not nice brown/yellow color.  Guess what color this anti-itch pet shampoo is?


Its clear!  So clear you can hardly even SEE it on my hand in the photo!

And, for the anti-itch part, I've only used this shampoo on Oscar one time to far, and he did seem to scratch a little less afterwards.  We'll have to see how the trend continues after the next couple of baths.

But, in the meantime, he smells great!



I got this product in exchange for a review, but all opinions are my own.

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Water Droplets - A Wordless Wednesday


“An over-indulgence of anything, even something as pure as water, can intoxicate.”
― Criss Jami, Venus in Arms


Monday, August 21, 2017

Weigh In - Week 3

Mondays are my Weigh in Day for my most recent Diet.  Like most dieters I apporached it with trepidation.

It didn't help that I knew where I had gone wrong.  My soda to water ratio was skewed toward soda.  My exercise was almost non-existant.

Also, the week before I had joined a DietBet.

If you are not familiar with DietBet, you put in a bit of money (starting at $10).  Then if you lose 4% of your body weight you win, and the pot is split between all the winners.

The pot of the DietBet I joined is currently $3,490, and if I "win" I get a piece of that.

Well, despite all my worries, I dropped this week.  I'm at 226.8, which means I only have to lose 2.5 more pounds to be a DietBet winner.

Starting Weight: 230
End Week 1: 226
End Week 2: 229
End Week 3: 226

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

National Coloring Book Day!

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I have always enjoyed coloring.  From the time I was a little girl making multi-colored easter bunnies, to the time I was all grown up and still buying kids coloring books from the dollar store to color in.

I was "Adult Coloring" before it was cool!

But now, Adult Coloring is the IN thing to do.  A ZEN thing to do, as coloring is supposed to help you calm down, destress and refocus.

Also, its just plain fun!

National Coloring Book Day


Turns out that coloring has a national day.  National Coloring Book day is TODAY, August 2nd.

Who doesn't want 100 crayola pencils!
Now, I still own bunches of kids coloring books from the dollar store, but I also have a few of the "adult" kind too.  Not to mention a full Coloring Pages Pinterest Board.

Now an Adult coloring book isn't black and white photos of grown ups in compromising posistions (well, some of them might be).  They are just coloring pages with tons more detial.  They might be mandalas, or cat, or garden walkways.  I have a David Bowie coloring book and a Princess Bride one.  If there is a person, place or thing that you like, its almost certain to have a coloring book of its very own.

Now that you KNOW it is National Coloring Book Day, I know you want to celebrate it properly, right?  How do you celebrate?  Well....

You can:
Download a Free Mini-Coloring book
or you can
Find a Coloring Book Event in your local area (or host one if you can't find one!)
there are even
online coloring parties via Dover Coloring's facebook page!

So, let me know:
Do you color?
Do you have a favorite coloring book?
How many coloring pencils do you currently own?

And HAVE FUN TODAY!
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